normal

okayokay so i'm avoiding studying for my final. i really just don't care any more. and i can fail it and still make an A, so that's even less motivating. perfect excuse to blog about something i was pondering.

last night i was complaining to charlie about some of the health issues i have and how i'm 24 and shouldn't be dealing with stuff like that yet and how particular i have to be with my diet and sleep and things i can or cannot physically do. it's frustrating. and i bellowed about how i just want to be normal.

but then i started thinking about "normal". there really isn't a "normal" for most things... what i've got to do is come to terms with what is "normal" for me... and then find peace there. i shouldn't compare myself to other people... i should only look at myself and my own strengths and limitations and make that the basis for how i live.

i'm not saying God doesn't do miracles or that He doesn't do exceedingly more with me than i can do on my own... i'm not saying that, so let's not even go there. i'm saying i have to live and be comfortable with my own natural, typical, every-day things. i have to take care of myself on the basis of what my body needs... not on what other bodies need.

okay, now that i've said the same thing 12 times, i suppose this post is finished :)