womp womp

it's been raining here for like 2 weeks. and it hasn't rained this much in the entirety we've spent in minnesota until this point. but i think i like it.

punkin threw up on her bed today. i gagged a LOT while i was cleaning it up. about as much as i gagged when i changed caleb's diaper. that doesn't give me strong hope for being a mother. susan said it's not gross when it's your baby. i don't believe that. just like i don't believe i will automatically think my baby is pretty. i've seen some pretty ugly babies.  i think i'll know if i have one. that doesn't mean it will stay ugly. it just means it's an ugly baby. it happens. it also doesn't mean i won't love him or her.

i got to see the review for the course i helped TA. OMGoodness. wow. brutal honesty. i've never seen how very honest students can be and how you may have no clue something is bothering them about the class.  i suppose i am the same way in classes. but wow. i don't think i've complained on here how CRAZY one of the professors was... but if she didn't know it before, i'm pretty sure she better admit to it now. brutal is the only word i can think of.  wow. i almost felt uncomfortable reading some of the comments even though i agreed with them!

i may or may not have a cleaning job for the summer. every day after work. part of me -really- hopes it doesn't work out so i don't have to go to work after a full day or work. but the other part of me thinks it would be -really- nice to have at least enough dollars this summer to go out to eat or to drive up to duluth and canada for a weekend. so i think that may make it worth it. especially since i'll have weekends off.  AND it will keep me in air conditioning an extra hour every day. (we don't have that in our apartment). (yeah).

this is a pretty random post.

okay. i think i'm finished.