eek!

ladies and gentlemen.
today. is my last. day. of work. ever.
:)
yep. EVER.


until this summer when i teach swimming lessons.
and then until the fall when i am forced to work in order to eat and have electricity.
and then probably until i have a baby.
but you better believe... when i have a baby... no more.
none of this... work... stuff.

i kid, i kid.

but i AM VERY excited that this is my last day at the hospital. it's been... challenging... and stretching... and rewarding.
one concept i have been pondering a lot lately is character.
we do the right thing because it's the right thing... not because we get something out of it. (although it's always nice when we ARE rewarded for doing the right thing... but that is NOT why we do it.) but it's made me think.. from a worldly standpoint... that makes no sense. so why do we do it? and how do we just -know- something is the right thing, when there are no obvious benefits from it? what makes something intrisically good.. or right? and how do we instinctively KNOW?
i think YOU know the answer to this one... :)
charlie and i watched a rob bell sermon yesterday called "all things are spiritual"... it felt like i was back at jbu. he did a fabulous job of tying faith and reason together... and it's something i deeply believe in. just because we think science is saying one thing and our faith is saying something different, it doesn't mean that they conflict. it just means we have a limited 2-dimensional type view. his example was a 3D hand passing into a 2D world. it wouldn't look like a hand... it would look like 5 circles of different diameter that enter at different times because of finger length discrepencies. one of us 2D persons may say "you know... i just sense that it's something more than that... i think it's a hand!" but without some sort of faith or revelation... no one else is going to see a hand. they're going to call 2D #1 a crazy person. but it doesn't mean he is.. it just means he's seeing in another dimension (which... btw.. scientist agree that there's at least like -9-... probably angels live in some of those...) Gosh... it was so good. he also talked about how man's place in the world is the converging point between the spiritual and the physical. it was beautiful. we have God the creator who breathed into the physical dust and gave us his essence. ugh! i wish i were better at articulating!

in other news... i'm getting married! yay! charlie and i took our engagement pictures! i'm checking on copyright and all that... but you have to see them! they're -beautiful-. she did a fantastic job. i will try to post at least one when i figure out how legal it is :) i'm kind of scared i have NO rights to them (or will have to pay $450 for legal rights to them like i'm pretty sure i found on her site?) (uhhh... poor stephanie and charlie who will own 0 photos of themselves.) (and we were going to send one to everyone in their invitation! but... if we have to pay $15 for each 4x6... we sadly, will not.)

i think it's like 85 days until the wedding. *sigh*

if you've read this far... you're quite impressive. many of you have told me you have a hard time posting.. if so... try posting with explorer instead of firefox.. or try enabling your cookies. those are the 2 maybe-fix-its i found online.

okay... i guess i should get back to my last 2 hours of work! (ever)