31 days till wedded bliss...

tomorrow could be the last day i teach swimming lessons. ever. until i teach my own, i suppose. dad overheard some of the ladies talking about how patient i was with their kids and how they all stayed so under control... some of them commented on how they wish i could nanny their kids so they could take that control home with them (or, i guess, so -i- can take that control into their home...?)
but... i'm just not sure. when we have a kid.. i can imagine getting really frustrated and like... throwing them in and letting them drown until they figure out they have to kick to stay afloat. i'm sure it won't go quite like that... but i worry my need for perfection will be projected onto my children. and i don't want to be like that. i want them to be free to be who they are. i'd rather them NOT worry about always doing the most right, best at everything.
but at the same time... my drive comes from doing the best at everything...
ahhh. i talk like i'm about to have one.
years. and years. like 8, probly.
this is probably boring to most. i've been teaching swimming lessons for like 9? years... tomorrow may be my last day! (and then it's 1 month until we're married!) (but that has nothing to do with swimming lessons.)
hair? maybe? with a flower or two... a little more natural curly looking?