10 days!

it's only 10 days away!
we may have talked about getting married for QUITE a while before charlie proposed... but i am SO glad the official proposal and wedding planning process was short. i can't imagine doing this for a whole year. waiting to get married for a whole year! no thank you. so for all of you people who told me i was crazy... this is for you. it's going to be a lovely, successful wedding. everything is going to work out just fine. and in the end... i didn't have to put off being married to my love for 8 extra months :)
that being said... there ARE a few little details i probably should have been trying to stay on top of. like who is going to put out the chairs on the day of the wedding... or what car i'm going to drive up in... or what SHOES i'm going to wear... or finding someone to video it... you know. the small stuff :) but it hasn't been worth it to me to stress myself out. i want to ENJOY this! and i won't if i'm trying to micro-manage everything at every minute.
this past weekend we had a lingerie and a couples shower at glynnwood down in louisiana. it was so much fun! after spending an entire year feeling like i didn't know anyone... i knew the name and face of almost everyone at the shower. that was such a good feeling and it made me feel a little more at home. i wish i wouldn't be so far from my family, but i AM joining a pretty great one :)
well... instead of being lazy, i suppose i should attempt to work on some of those small details! orrrrrrrr do yoga or tan or something :)

i'm in love

tomorrow is 18 days until the wedding. and i can't wait. there's a list a mile long of all the small things that have to happen before then... but i know they'll get done. and at the end of that joyous day, i'll be married to my best friend. the most wonderful man there is.
when i think about the chain of events that had to happen in order for THIS to happen.. it's undeniable. i don't necessarily believe in "the one"... i think who you marry is the one... but i DO believe that God brought Charlie and myself together. for a good purpose. i'm so thankful He did. he's the perfect one for me... endlessly patient, steady, loving, compassionate, open to hearing God and able to do so, WISE... SO wise... and he pursues me. every day. as if i'm someone worth REALLY knowing.

i am a woman blessed by God.
more proof: the ladies at my church through a bridal shower for me (and charlie)!

my mom and sister:
the lovely hostesses:
the food table:
and the drink table! i love the tea jar!

31 days till wedded bliss...

tomorrow could be the last day i teach swimming lessons. ever. until i teach my own, i suppose. dad overheard some of the ladies talking about how patient i was with their kids and how they all stayed so under control... some of them commented on how they wish i could nanny their kids so they could take that control home with them (or, i guess, so -i- can take that control into their home...?)
but... i'm just not sure. when we have a kid.. i can imagine getting really frustrated and like... throwing them in and letting them drown until they figure out they have to kick to stay afloat. i'm sure it won't go quite like that... but i worry my need for perfection will be projected onto my children. and i don't want to be like that. i want them to be free to be who they are. i'd rather them NOT worry about always doing the most right, best at everything.
but at the same time... my drive comes from doing the best at everything...
ahhh. i talk like i'm about to have one.
years. and years. like 8, probly.
this is probably boring to most. i've been teaching swimming lessons for like 9? years... tomorrow may be my last day! (and then it's 1 month until we're married!) (but that has nothing to do with swimming lessons.)
hair? maybe? with a flower or two... a little more natural curly looking?

don't leave me charlie :(