too much.

i've got a lot swimming around in my head, lately.
like why do i still think the picture i chose for my banner at the top of this page is funny? (or at all endearing.)
or... the hundreds of challenging (and sobering) things i read in shane claiborne's book "the irresistible revolution". things i didn't really plan on coming into and interrupting my pleasant, comfortable little life. but things that will certainly make it harder, more adventurous, and most definitely more fulfilling.
or i'm thinking about... hard things. dark things that i wish... just weren't a part of the broken, messed up world we live in.
or... about how what we reap what we sow. how i'm glad i've worked hard and not gossiped at work... and how thankful i am God is giving me favor through that... but how just because i work hard and try to stay out of trouble doesn't mean trouble won't find me... or there won't be people who -really- really -really- hate me.
i believe i am overwhelmed with too many thoughts right now to make a good, coherent post. i think i'll have to process a little more and maybe make several posts that are more focused.
these things always help me process, so i hope i'll actually come back and do it later when i've got a little more time.
for now :) i need to get up in only 8 short hours, so i'm going to sign off for now.