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I watched a YouTube video the other day about marriage. It was the same guy who wrote the 5 love languages. He was talking about how every marriage has 4 seasons. Winter, spring, summer, fall. And every relationship goes through changing seasons throughout the duration of the relationship. He said it's basically inevitable that a couple will have falls and winters, but that there are things you can do to leave fall or winter and spend more time in springs and summers.

We've been thinking about trying to find a book to spark some conversations about our relationship, but haven't known where to look. Maybe this will be a good place to start. We've been married 6.5 years. The further we go, the more I realize I don't know about marriage.

AJ is the best thing in the world. I want like 10 more of her. I'm trying to be/get/become as healthy as possible so we can have options when we feel like it's time to expand our family. Sometimes I feel like I don't have enough hours in the day to do all the things I want and need to do to take care of myself.

I've started doing some guided meditation. I've found some good Christian ones that lead you with prayers or scriptures or prompts for praying/praise. I've really been enjoying it. I've been listening to podcasts on parenting and marriage and nutrition. I've been trying to get outside.

I need to exercise more. I need to figure out how to keep up with housework better. It is... not my gifting in life. nor is grocery shopping or cooking or decorating or any of the other house things I feel like I am supposed to be good at. Just because I am a woman (especially as a Christian woman). Somehow, those things that I am not good at are Charlie's love language. Whyyyyyyyyy. Whyyyyyyyyyyyy? I can tell him all the live-long-day how proud I am of him. But it just floats right on by him. And I eat that stuff up.

It's not easy. But I guess that's not what we're promised in life from the things that are worth it.

365 days

Tomorrow is the birthday day! 1 whole year. The first 6 months kind of felt like 5 years, but the second 6 months went by in about 3.5 minutes.

She is so amazing. She's walking and talking (well. trying on both accounts).

She's supposed to be taking her afternoon nap right now. But she's sitting up in her crib rubbing her eyes. Susan said her boys went down to 1 nap per day at around a year, but she cries soooo much when I don't put her down. But she's doing 1 good nap for Mimi, so maybe I need to work toward that. I tried this morning, by holding off her morning nap until around 10:30 when Mimi puts her down. But instead, she just took a much shorter nap. HA. I'll figure it out.

Right now she's sitting in her crib rubbing her eyes. And then rubbing her head on her mattress and then sitting back up and rubbing her eyes. She's so tired.

I am a 365day-old mama. I know a LOT more about babies than my 0daymama-self knew. Aaaaaaand I have a lot to learn.

I know Parks and Rec is NOT a deep show, but on the last episode, Leslie tells April that kids are kind of like adding people to your team. Our team is SO much livelier and sillier and happier and cuter since AJ joined our team. But I know there are more of us. Our team isn't full, yet. It's fun to have your own team.